Wow, I made it through the summer! I really didn't know if I was going to... I was white knuckling it there for the last few weeks. Sometimes I feel bad that I am not like a lot of other mothers out there that mourn when there children go back to school. I hope to have that happen one day, but for me at my time in life right now, the first day of school is my reprieve, my salvation, my vacation....my time to get back into all my wonderful routines! Most especially, I have time in the mornings where it is quiet and I can actually start up my relationship with Heavenly Father again. Oh how I have missed Him and that time!
Summer was nice and I have many pictures to post of all the great things we did but I am not sad to see it go. I am so excited for all the wonderful holidays coming up and the fall weather which I hope we will be seeing soon. Its nice to feel excited and recharged.
The kids are doing great. I really struggled with Cole over the summer but I think we are going to turn a corner..I am changing some things up with how I deal with him and I believe with him going to school is helping with his attitude. He is such a smart little guy he needs to be challenged and I wasn't providing that for him here.
Carson is now gone all day. He is such a tender little guy... he came home yesterday saying he got into a name calling fight with some kid at school and after he walked away he said he started to cry! Talk about heart break to hear that. My first inclination is to get the name of the kid and go call him names...but will that be teaching Carson anything or do me "spiritually" any good? No. These are the kinds of things that I had to deal with and he will have to deal with too....this is life and life is HARD sometimes... I hope instead of wanting to rescue in these situations I can teach VALUES and show how to cope with these situations healthy. I knew he might struggle a little just because he is so sensitive. I know he is going to do great though and make some wonderful friends..its just getting through these rough patches.
Morgan is starting kindergarten soon! I don't know if she is excited or not. I think I may have to wait to see how she does with that first day. I think she will love it! It has been so fun to just have the two little ones home. Morgan is my little bud and she is sooooo girly. I love hearing her play by herself in her room with all her ponies and play makeup and jewelry all out around her. She is the most talkative little kid I have ever had. She can talk and play by herself for hours...really. And the super funny thing is when she is playing she talks in this high pitched mommy voice...it is so funny to listen too.
And Tate dog is perfect still. I usually have kids in their own room by 4 months but I just can't do it with him. He is in a bassinet in our bedroom and I think will stay there for awhile longer. (Plus if I move him I worry that Morgan will be all over him and waking him up constantly! They will have to share a room.) He is rolling over front to back and back to front. Not crawling or getting up on his knees yet. Still has the biggest, cutest, come hug and kiss me to death smile.
Michael is doing wonderful. We both have started the P90X deal and that is really fun to do together. Today will make 6 days. I am so glad he is doing it with me or i would have quit. I love doing things together and he is a wonderful man. He has been so good to me....I had a bit of a metal break down a little while ago (I said this summer was tough) so he let me go off on my own for a few days while he took the boys and they went and did something fun too.
I still have much to write but this is a quick snapshot of our life right now.
