I am happy to report that I am now on my way to becoming a mother of four! We have been trying since last December (minus a few months... I just got tired), and it finally happened for us. I am only 8 weeks along but already dreading the next month and half until this nasty, no energy, wanna-throw up-but-don't, feeling will leave me. This is what I tried so hard for right? No, just want the baby not all this junk!
I am happy but in the day to day moments of the last month I don't feel all that happy. I am always amazed at how my mood and attitude take a nose dive when I don't feel good. So I am happy at the blessing of having another one in the long and distant future but so sad that I am in this horrible stage.
With each child my pregnancies get worse. So I can say very emphatically this is it…..no more! I am over this stage already and want to move on to the fun nesting stage. I am even crazy enough right now to take being huge and uncomfortable over this nasty stage.
No more venting. On to how we found out. We went to visit my family in Idaho for the 4th of July, which went down in flames, I will say the worst visit of all time and I don’t think anything could ever top it. I will spare future generations the bore of all the details, but suffice to say, it did not go well and I was an emotional basket case. I could not take my family and my family could not take me. So when I found out two days after coming home that I was pregnant I felt a little comforted by the fact that there were hormones to blame the whole event on. Sorry again, for any and all who had to put up with me that weekend.
I hate being so negative, especially in light of my last post. But "this too shall pass", as my Grandma Carol always says, and it will, and I can’t pray it here soon enough!
